Today was my first therapy session. Overall I felt it went very well but I didn’t go in there expecting anything whatsoever, so what do I know? I’ve never had therapy so I really didn’t have anything to compare it to…except what I’ve seen on TV. My therapist and I got along pretty okay, kind of like meeting a new colleague, you’re like well he doesn’t suck but he’s not the coolest person I’ve ever met. It was pretty damn difficult to tell the story of what has basically occurred over the last three years though. I really miss her so much right now and this is so difficult. Just writing right now sucks.
I spoke to quite a few people about planning this big trip and I think it’s not going to be as difficult as I thought it would be. I don’t feel as overwhelmed as I did even a day or so ago. I spoke with a friend from church which I’ve never met actually and he gave some really fantastic advice…. and the most important part being to just trust in God and let Him guide me. I love God, I love that idea and that’s how I live my life so why would this trip be any different?
I received a message from one of my best friends that his father was taken to the ER. He is also battling cancer and it took a turn for the worse. I of course prayed for him with my good friend Ryan and I asked others to pray for him too. (PS. Ryan is thinking about quitting and joining me on this trip, crazy) I also sent my friend some inspiring messages and let him know that God loves him. My friends name is Tony and his faith is very far from where he wants it to be. I feel a bit inclined to go to Arizona if he would be okay with that so I’m waiting to hear back. I did however realize that I have lost my father-in-law, my grandfather and my wife all within just over 20 months. Most people use the acronym WTF for losing a sock or stepping in dog poop…I feel as though after realizing what I have lost in such a short amount of time that the acronym WTF is quite acceptable. So here goes…WTF.
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