The Beginning

Overall the actual travel part of our trip was pretty easy, a few hiccups but that’s pretty much expected when traveling right? Checked in to the hostel, really cool vibe…many aspects are reminding me of the movie “The Beach”, world travelers from every corner of the globe retelling their treks of adventure in different accents. The moment I knew Jess was happy that I came out here was pretty immediate…which was very reassuring to say the least.

Ryan and I checked into the hostel, made our way to the room stepping over a cat or two and greeted by a parrot saying Hola, we laid our bags upon the beds, our shoulders felt the instant relief and I’m sure I became a bit taller. We could hear the music in the common area playing through the walls and the first full song we heard was Bob Marley’s “Is This Love”. That just so happens to be my and Jessica’s wedding song, we loved it and I take it as a sign that she’s here with me…without a doubt. I sat at the edge of the bed as the tears accumulated between my feet. This was due to happiness, not sorrow…a very rare occurrence for me. I will never forget this gift from Jessica.

We walked around town many times, it’s gorgeous…and I do think of how much she would have loved so many different things. The colors, the architecture, the beautiful people, of course the fruit stands but mainly I think she would have loved being here with me. We loved this kind of feeling, the adventure, the culture, the people and the love we shared experiencing life together. I think of her so very often and I have to remove myself from social situations to process my thoughts at times but I try and do what’s best for me. So far I like Colombia but I’m operating at a different wavelength than most, of pretty much everyone actually. People ask if I’m married and I hesitate, it knocks the wind out of me. That will take some getting used to, especially because I answer differently every time. I miss meeting people with her and introducing her, strangers gravitated towards us as a couple…I feel as though I’ve lost my mojo…I hope to find it again one day. I prayed to God to please help me find my way in church today. I am very much looking forward to volunteering soon…I hope it helps as much as I’m praying it will.