I wish new friends could have met Jessica, and better yet met us. We were so great together if I do say so myself. I loved us, I was proud of us, excited about us, glowing about our energy…which seriously grew exponentially when we came together. Like most couples we were a team…Team Hehn! But unlike most couples we were better than the other teams…haha, just kidding of course. We knew we had so much growing and learning to do regarding our relationship…but we were so excited to do that together. We were so excited to see our faith grow together for instance, we felt the change occurring and it was such a wonderful feeling. We felt ourselves get better at communicating and discussing our disagreements. This took years but it’s supposed to right? We noticed how our love grew deeper and became fuller through God. Our growing love for Him spread into every other area and aspect of our lives…it’s like we were rewarded. We were so excited to have children and raise mini perfect versions of ourselves and then make mistakes and learn from them, grow with our children…with our family. I can recall Jessica sitting in her big brown chair next to the bed when she was battling and saying “I can’t wait to have kids, I’m just so ready”. And I was ready to, before we wanted everything to be perfect but we got to a point in time when we realized that it didn’t matter…nothing will ever BE… “perfect”, because it already was perfect, it is God’s hands. I miss picking out children’s names with her, we both wanted one boy and one girl. I know every husband wants a son and I’m no different, I would have been happy with anything but I wanted to see a little version of Jessica…that’s how much I loved my wife…I wanted more of her to exist, I was so thrilled about just the idea of that. I couldn’t imagine us having children and not having a little girl, now that’s all gone. I miss thinking about all four of us saying “Team Hehn!” On some adventure in the middle of somewhere, anywhere.
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