I came to the cemetery today for quite a long time. I basically sat there in silence for 20 minutes or so and then I started to pray and speak to Jessica. Her grave is directly in front of this beautiful statue of Jesus…it actually seems as if he’s looking right towards her. Well I hung out by the statue for well over an hour and for some reason I decided to wash the feet of Jesus…I know this sounds nuts but I’ve really been trying to follow through with any push that is placed in my heart. I felt this push so I grabbed my bottle of water I use to water her flowers and I poured some on his feet and began to wash them. It felt good and it was humbling in a big way…I also felt that I was honoring our Lord. It was also an emotional experience and my emotions got the best of me. So I had to sit next to this statue and weep into my hands for a bit…I then sat up and again prayed to God and Jessica. I asked for some peace and of course a sign. Now some will call me nuts…for let alone washing the feet of a statue but also for believing that this was a sign from my wife. After asking for a sign a looked down to see a tiny caterpillar sitting on the middle of the top of my hand. He might have climbed up there from the statue but I don’t see how I wouldn’t have noticed or felt his presence when I was holding my hands to my face for awhile. But I just smiled and then he started to walk, so I peacefully observed his journey and then decided to put him on the statue of Jesus. I stayed there with Jess for another half hour or so…and this caterpillar made his way all over that statue. It was pretty entertaining and I would check up on his progress every so often. He covered a good amount of distance and never left the statue. He also reminded me of my very first official date with Jessica. We met for brunch at Navy Pier of all places, Jess lived two minutes from there back in the day, and we stumbled across this great big green caterpillar and played with him for awhile before moving him off the sidewalk and into in a safer environment. It was a lovely “first date” and I truly enjoyed reminiscing over some very happy moments.
I have discovered that signs can come in so many different mediums that you have to keep your eyes, your mind and heart open…and it’s okay to perceive them as you wish…it doesn’t matter if some think you’re crazy. If it helps…then it’s good. As they say, God works in mysterious ways.
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