Is it better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all? Well that depends on when you ask me. Actually that’s not true because no matter when you ask it’s always, always better to have loved and lost. I have pondered this question quite frequently, given that I am unfortunately one of the people who you would ask such a question. I have read many messages, probably a hundred or so from so many supportive and loving friends, family and complete strangers too. One of the common things which l read in these messages goes something like this: Joe, you and Jessica shared a love that many people never get to experience. You two had a love right out of the movies, a love which people dream of having one day.
This makes me happy and then sad, then I start to think of the times Jessica and I shared…like a little romantic montage that plays out in my mind…it’s very quick and changes from one time period to the next. Then I think of how much I miss making those memories with her, I’m so unbelievably heart broken. I ask myself if just possibly it would be better being one of those people who sent me a letter, writing of my and Jessica’s love and how inspiring it was, how I would not say it but make it known that I had not experienced a love like this, how I am envious for this love. I ask myself if I would rather be that person writing me a letter or me as I am right now, after she has gone. I know in my heart I would never trade my love for anything…even if I only shared it with Jessica for one whole day.
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