Glancing back upon my journey…my steps mapped out as my eyes glisten over at the footprints sunken into the grainy terrain temporarily marking my existence…what should be four prints stamped into the sea-soaked sand dismally display just two. My gaze in drawn out to sea…into the vast unknown laid out before my eyes like a Monet created solely to ease my everlasting pain…temporarily answering unanswerable questions and stealing beats from a heart which throbs for just one soul instead of two. The calming pulse of the sea matches my own…a comfort knowing it’s rhythm lasts an eternity…mine a mere flash. Past realities frequent my mind like relentless waves crashing upon the battered cliffside. Flashes arise of her honest and humbling smile….absolute purity…it fades like a candle’s flame who’s wick has reached it’s final thread…a quick provocative glance thrown my direction as her opaque flowing Mediterranean locks follow suit…only to vanish into darkness like a shadow during a waking sun…the deepness of her infinitely amber eyes penetrate my being, revealing my deepest insecurities and unveiling my most treasured secrets…drawing me into the oil slick colored pupil abyss as they swallow my entirety into their lightless void…her boisterous laughter echoes throughout my subconscious like a tumbling stone descending into an eternal canyon…it gradually muffles…slowly fading out…only to be replaced by undesired deafening silence.
My only comfort being the stirring warmth in the depths of my being, it’s not merely the golden sun that warms my bronzed skin…something more tenacious…an unbreakable bond made stronger by death…messages from beyond delivered from another existence…the sea, sky, sun, wind and fluttering creatures act as Heavenly couriers channeling her love…trumping my grief. Instantaneously over moments unknown my aching existence remains unquenched…yearning for her sweet adoration, gentle graze or enduring compassion. Taking short-lived comfort within the allure of the smoldering red orb descending into the boundless sea…a reminder that all things which love truly & wholly must one day pass into the darkness only to emerge anew into a permanence of rapture…when my perennial ecstasy comes to pass, two footprints will once again become four.
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