2015

Most importantly, right now…realize that your spiritual growth is by far the most important goal on your list. Don’t be vain, improve your physical sanctuary so that your soul, emotional wellness, intellectual mind and spiritual being can improve…but don’t let it be the top priority. Find new levels of consciousness through meditation and remaining in the moment…in the now…in every situation, encounter, conversation and while partaking in training, yoga, martial arts, surfing etc. You’ve always been drawn to achieving a higher level of consciousness…Jessica and God have awarded you the opportunity to focus on that now…it’s a gift from Heaven. Use it. Don’t fall back into your old routine, release your old vices and grasp this opportunity by the horns and commit yourself fully, I would say like you’ve never done before but that’s not true. Commit to your spiritual, emotional, intellectual and physical improvement like you’ve committed to seeing and helping your wife through her sickness, believing each and every day that she would be healed and working so very hard at accomplishing that goal until she was healed. Never give up and don’t let anything, anyone or any negative force get in your way until you too have left this world for a better existence. Believe in yourself, let your love be fuel, reason and purpose. She knows you can do it, she believes in you. Make her proud and teach others. Use your gifts and help others. There are no excuses and no looking back, forward progress…one day…one moment at a time…just like you learned when life became too overwhelming to manage any longer than that. Pray, follow your heart, open your soul to guidance from your inner self, from the universe, from Jessica and from God. You don’t need visual signs any longer, you’ve been shown enough…now you know, you truly know…you feel them instead of see them now. You know what to do and it doesn’t matter where, just follow your gut like she taught you and you’ll be fine. You are not alone, you have your family, you have your friends, you have Jessica, you have the energy in the universe and you have God to lead and help you along your journey. You will succeed. You feel in your heart what not to do, what will cause regression and produce obstacles, avoid them. You feel in your heart where to start. You’ve felt this persuasion, this push for a very long time but never felt like you could commit, too many obligations, too many distractions. The time has come, her death was not a gift but it will not be lived out in vain. You wanted to pursue this life with her, side by side, helping each other, pushing each other, guiding each other to become better, to become more…all through love and that has not changed. You know what needs to be done, you feel it…your healthy obsession…always has been. She is with you, you can do this. She is with me, I can do this. I am doing this. Amen.

-Learn to meditate better and more frequently.

-Learn how to stay in the moment even more, be present.

-Let your faith guide you.

-Learn to surf better.

-Learn to be proficient in Yoga.

-Pray more.

-Learn Spanish, as much as you can:)

-Get into the best strength & cardio shape of your life.

-Swim more.

-Write a book.

-Complete Jessica’s prayer garden.

-Visit new places, many new places…learn to love everyone and learn from their experience, customs and love.

-Ride a motorcycle or drive a jeep more, you love it and deserve it.

-Finish reading the entire Bible.

-Release your addictions.

-Continue to honor your sweet Jessica.

-Have fun and continue to laugh:)

-Release your obstacles.

-Dance more, free yourself through it.

-Honor your mother & father, your siblings, your family, your friends…your enemies.

-Release your vanity, release your insecurities.

-Read 24 books this year.

-Cook more, branch out and try more things, continue to be healthy but do better.

-Eat more greens and eat clean.

-Make new friends.

-Be more accepting, more tolerant.

-Explore more, test yourself and embrace your fears…overcome them, you’ve done it before.

-Don’t complain.

-Continue to become more patient.

-No more road rage:)

-Learn woody dummy form.

-Help others more frequently.

-Heal your heart & soul.

-Love more.